"Apparitions" by Matthew Good Band

When you least expect it something happens. Sometimes it may be good or bad, it is the unexpected.

I have thought of Michelle ever since she was killed. I wondered for a while why I never had a dream with been exhausted. I have been having headaches due to the stress from my research project and trying to get it complete.

I fell asleep this afternoon and took a nap. I dreamt I was with Michelle and we were leaving a concert. I was going to ask her for the money for the tickets but I remembered her birthday passed and realized this was her gift. She asked me if I wanted to go to Sephora and I said yes, so we walked up a flight of stairs together and I woke up. I believe it was my father's fault for me waking up, I would have liked the dream to not end so soon, of to not be a dream. She is welcome to come visit me whenever she wants...

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I feel in situations where people fuck up around me and I am in a position of being thr bad guy, I tend to feel like an adult.


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"Half Mast" by Empire of the Sun

Sunday: Ugh! I’m getting lazy with updating this again. I hate when this happens. So much has gone on lately too, I’ll have to see what sticks out of my mind.

First off, some how out of some stroke of luck, or was it fate, I bumped into Lissy’s friend John. He was in a diner not far from my house. The train station staircase I normally walk up was under construction forcing me to walk down the one on the opposing side. When I got home from class I was later than normal. I was walking down the stairs slowly due to my knee acting up and just looked down and saw inside of the diner and saw John. I called Jessica not really sure what to do and then decided to go inside. When I spoke to him, I basically found out that yeah she cut off everyone and him. He didn’t know that she had a kid or anything like that and when I shared some things that went on with her he was really surprised. I felt relieved with the new information well basically that she really did cut everyone off. I still want to see her sister and see what she has to day.

My classes are coming to an end, which I honestly can’t believe. My experimental class actually is going to pretty much end after the test Wednesday, but I will still have recitation where I am working on my research project. Things are going well with that, despite the disastrous crap that went on with the survey. I think when it comes to dealing with people and asking them to do something like help with a survey they act fucked up, or tend to not care. Karla and I analyze the results when we can in class and some things people said make you really wonder how serious they took the survey. Not very serious is, the conclusion that I came to. Still not really sure what to do with the data which makes me not want to move far from where Anna is. I know Bessy is having a similar situation though Enchantment isn’t doing much to help her.

Speaking of enchantment she is acting like an asshat. For one of my assignments in photography I had to do staged photography. So I invited Bessy and Karla, and assorted others that didn’t make it, it to this idea I had where I was taking pictures of people in the cemetery to make it seem like they were ghosts after I treated the pictures in photoshop. Anyway I didn’t get to finish the assignment and was chased out due to not being allowed to take posed pictures in the cemetery, but that’s not what I am getting at. Enchantment wanted me to invite her, but in all seriousness even though she might be a decent friend I needed someone to depend on and I know she is not dependable so I wasn’t going to invite her. Her behavior is totally similar to Isadora in the sense of getting bent over something and then acting very immaturely about things instead of directly addressing the situation.