Monday, September 12, 2011
"Oh No" by Andrew Bird
Monday: I am really thinking of going to one of the counselors at my school and seeing if I can go for therapy through them. It was something that was an option when my time with Randi was ending. I just wanted someone that was not at my school. Since I am going to be there for this semester and the next, I am thinking that maybe I should go to someone on campus since I am there already. I just need to find a time and figure things out from there. I would prefer the head of counseling since I have spoken to her before, but she was out on maternity. I don’t know if she has returned yet.
The two things that are on my mind that are bothering me are Jessica, and work.
With Jessica, I really don’t know what to do with her. I remind myself what Mike said to me about how she doesn’t think. I know this to be true, she just does and thinking is not involved. Jessica has yet to tell her grandmother about her moving and she was afraid that her aunt would see her facebook posts and tell the uncle, which would lead to the grandmother finding out. One night I was bored and I went to her page to see what was going on to find out pretty much that she was with her ex. I really don’t understand why Jessica hasn’t asked me for any help. If she is expecting me to volunteer it, I don’t foresee that happening since we might not be free at the same time. I have yet to discuss things with Jessica, I want to wait until she isn’t stressed. But then again I have a better chance of bringing Jesus back from the grave than waiting for her to be stress free. When I was telling Bessy about how Jessica was telling me that one of the twins friends gave her a china set, I asked if Bessy thinks that Jessica is expecting me to just give her things. She told me that that is really stupid if that is the case, you don’t just give people things for moving unless they have a house warming. That is pretty much what I thought as well..
In regards to work, I am really starting to dislike Shelain which is unfortunate since I did like her a lot and enjoyed talking to her. I feel she is bitter over me running the lab, and is just on some personal crusade to make me look bad. I walked in today 25 min late, and after dealing with how she snapped at me last time over me being late I made sure that I texted Mobruka to let her know when I was leaving that I could possibly be late. It isn’t my fault that Mobruka had her phone on silent and didn’t see that I wrote her. So when I walked in of course Shelain had to see me and give me the stink eye. To make matters worse, when the economics class came in, instead of just letting me know that they were there and to turn on the projector she was banging on the window as if she was being raped and yelled at me in front of the class to turn the projector on. She doesn’t have any right to do that since she isn’t my boss. She is making me really dislike her… When I in tomorrow I am going to talk to professor Murray and tell her what’s going on. She warned me before that I need to really watch out for Shelain and Rico, that they will make my lives hell because they are jealous. I may have to speak with Davies as well, I just am so hesitant since I was late those times which wasn’t completely my fault since the trains were running on some bizarre schedule.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Friday:Things have been so crazy the past few weeks. They have been in both positive and negative ways.
About two weeks ago, I got an email from Dr. Lanzone which told me to contact Seth who is the head of the communications dept. I thought it may have been in regards to something technical or software based, but instead he was asking me if I was interested in working in the lab again. I told him I was, though I am not going to class this semester. He said it would also be for the spring semester as well. I emailed Dr. Lanzone top tell her that Seth wanted me to work in the lab, and she told me to call her as soon as I could. When I did that she gave me an earful about the lab. She told me how she always looked out for Mayra, the office manager, and that the school did not want to provide her with anymore time sheets so they let her go. The lab needed someone to oversee it and help students if they needed help and so they asked me. I honestly didn't know what to think when I was finally told that I would have Mayra's job nor did I know all of her responsibilities. I also wasn't sure how the other staff members would handle the news as well. They might not be so receptive to me running it and might feel that one of them should have been put in this position instead of me. The situation reminded me of the office when they were applying to work at corporate only to find out that Jan was getting fired and it was for her job. The person that did get the job was the temp Ryan, thats who I feel like right now. I was just a tutor, and then someone here providing tech support if something happened to one of the computers in the lab. The other members working in the lab had time to learn the Mac operating system but they didn't. They had about 2 years and I remain the only one that really knows how to use it, which was my selling point since one of the labs is all Macs. I wanted to talk to someone about all of this, so I turned to Mobruka, someone I really wouldn't run to if something was up. Especially since she is friendly with Mayra. I didn't know if the other staff members knew, or if Mayra even knew. When I spoke to Mobruka she said that she was disappointed she wasn't asked but realizes that I know Macs so that would make me most qualified. She said she was happy that at least it went to someone she knew. I told her my concerns with telling some of the other staff members and she said I should wait until we start working and let them find out, and I did that. I was dreading Rico coming into the lab and being an obnoxious shit which he normally is. Mobruka said that hopefully he felt the shift in power and wouldn't be his obnoxious self. I also worried that Shelain would feel that she deserved the job and that I took it away from her. I was basing this off of how she acted last semester when she saw my time sheet and that I made more money than her. She didn't have much of anything to say when she actually did come in. Milly did which surprised me. She said she was upset that she wasn't asked. She also said she realizes that it's a lot of work. I told Mobruka I was surprised that Milly said that, but I guess she felt that she would fit best in this position.
So far I don't have any complaints about the job though I need to have a clear set of what my responsibilities are. I have yet to find that out and really need to since people here have certain expectations of me. I don't know if all the things that Mayra did were part of her job, or if they were just added things that she did. Shelain made it sound like I am expected to sweep the floors and pick up every piece of crap that falls on the them. I assumed that was maintenance and apparently it is. The professor I had for film, Davies, said that I should come up with a list so that I can discuss this with Seth and figure out my responsibilities.
I really haven't heard from Jessica this week since I would talk to her when I was home and she was at work. Since I am in the office I really can't call her, especially when there are classes in session. I don't want people to think I am like Rico where I will just bullshit on the phone and waste time. The last time I spoke to her she was going to pick up the keys for the apartment, as for when she is moving into the place I don't know. I have my suspicion that it is this weekend though after reading something one of the twins wrote on her wall. I find it rather insulting that she hasn't asked me but runs to them for everything. And when they can't help her instead of asking me she just wines about how she doesn't have anyone to help her. She was supposed to be moved in already, but I know her schedule creates a conflict with that. I don't think that things were very well planed out in regards to her moving. I know she is unhappy and to her this seemed like the right decision. The film professor said something to me when he saw me working in the lab this semester that made me think of Jessica. He told me he was happy and disappointed that I was working in the lab. Happy because he knows I will do a good job and be able to help students, and disappointed because he doesn't want me to get stuck in this job and not be able to move forward. That is pretty much what is happening with Jessica. She is going to move into this apartment and not be able to do much of anything unless she finds another job. So I guess the plans she had for going back to college to be a vet tech is out...
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About two weeks ago, I got an email from Dr. Lanzone which told me to contact Seth who is the head of the communications dept. I thought it may have been in regards to something technical or software based, but instead he was asking me if I was interested in working in the lab again. I told him I was, though I am not going to class this semester. He said it would also be for the spring semester as well. I emailed Dr. Lanzone top tell her that Seth wanted me to work in the lab, and she told me to call her as soon as I could. When I did that she gave me an earful about the lab. She told me how she always looked out for Mayra, the office manager, and that the school did not want to provide her with anymore time sheets so they let her go. The lab needed someone to oversee it and help students if they needed help and so they asked me. I honestly didn't know what to think when I was finally told that I would have Mayra's job nor did I know all of her responsibilities. I also wasn't sure how the other staff members would handle the news as well. They might not be so receptive to me running it and might feel that one of them should have been put in this position instead of me. The situation reminded me of the office when they were applying to work at corporate only to find out that Jan was getting fired and it was for her job. The person that did get the job was the temp Ryan, thats who I feel like right now. I was just a tutor, and then someone here providing tech support if something happened to one of the computers in the lab. The other members working in the lab had time to learn the Mac operating system but they didn't. They had about 2 years and I remain the only one that really knows how to use it, which was my selling point since one of the labs is all Macs. I wanted to talk to someone about all of this, so I turned to Mobruka, someone I really wouldn't run to if something was up. Especially since she is friendly with Mayra. I didn't know if the other staff members knew, or if Mayra even knew. When I spoke to Mobruka she said that she was disappointed she wasn't asked but realizes that I know Macs so that would make me most qualified. She said she was happy that at least it went to someone she knew. I told her my concerns with telling some of the other staff members and she said I should wait until we start working and let them find out, and I did that. I was dreading Rico coming into the lab and being an obnoxious shit which he normally is. Mobruka said that hopefully he felt the shift in power and wouldn't be his obnoxious self. I also worried that Shelain would feel that she deserved the job and that I took it away from her. I was basing this off of how she acted last semester when she saw my time sheet and that I made more money than her. She didn't have much of anything to say when she actually did come in. Milly did which surprised me. She said she was upset that she wasn't asked. She also said she realizes that it's a lot of work. I told Mobruka I was surprised that Milly said that, but I guess she felt that she would fit best in this position.
So far I don't have any complaints about the job though I need to have a clear set of what my responsibilities are. I have yet to find that out and really need to since people here have certain expectations of me. I don't know if all the things that Mayra did were part of her job, or if they were just added things that she did. Shelain made it sound like I am expected to sweep the floors and pick up every piece of crap that falls on the them. I assumed that was maintenance and apparently it is. The professor I had for film, Davies, said that I should come up with a list so that I can discuss this with Seth and figure out my responsibilities.
I really haven't heard from Jessica this week since I would talk to her when I was home and she was at work. Since I am in the office I really can't call her, especially when there are classes in session. I don't want people to think I am like Rico where I will just bullshit on the phone and waste time. The last time I spoke to her she was going to pick up the keys for the apartment, as for when she is moving into the place I don't know. I have my suspicion that it is this weekend though after reading something one of the twins wrote on her wall. I find it rather insulting that she hasn't asked me but runs to them for everything. And when they can't help her instead of asking me she just wines about how she doesn't have anyone to help her. She was supposed to be moved in already, but I know her schedule creates a conflict with that. I don't think that things were very well planed out in regards to her moving. I know she is unhappy and to her this seemed like the right decision. The film professor said something to me when he saw me working in the lab this semester that made me think of Jessica. He told me he was happy and disappointed that I was working in the lab. Happy because he knows I will do a good job and be able to help students, and disappointed because he doesn't want me to get stuck in this job and not be able to move forward. That is pretty much what is happening with Jessica. She is going to move into this apartment and not be able to do much of anything unless she finds another job. So I guess the plans she had for going back to college to be a vet tech is out...
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