"We Are Water" by HEALTH

Wednesday: I think its everything that has been going on lately that is making me not very happy. I haven’t really been in the mood to do much and I do have things to take care of. One of the things is finishing my room. I haven’t put anything back into it yet other than clothes from my dresser after the whole carpet beetle fiasco part 2. On the path to getting things back in order, the exterminator is coming this weekend. My mother told him about the beetles and he said he had something he could spray to kill them. He must think they are still there though and he said he wanted a specimen but they are gone. Or I think so anyway, all that is left is just a skin or two from the larva which he can take. The other thing that needs to be put in order is the hutch needs to be emptied and the new desk needs to be put in place. That then requires me to move everything over there. I am not looking forward to lifting my 80+ pound desktop.

This past weekend I went out with Jessica and she wanted to drive. She recently got a used car and wanted to drive instead of taking car service down to where we hang out. She did admit to regretting it towards the end of the night since we couldn’t drink. She said it would be the last night she would drive it but I don’t know how true that is, especially with what went on today. She told me last week that she went to go look at an apartment just to “look”. I think that my skills in reading people and knowing what they are going to do is better than people think. I knew she was going to look at it and make a decision impulsively. She assured me that she was still just looking though. We really didn’t discuss anything about the apartment while she was out. If we did, she just told me that the area wasn’t that bad, though it is. I told her I wish she could take the apartment on the third floor, and she kept saying how it is to much room for her. Honestly, if I had the money to give my parents a month I would take that apartment despite how large it is. I really wouldn’t care, but that’s me. The people up there need to go also. They have been extra annoying lately and my mother is done with their shit. Just to discuss some of what went on, the outlet in the bathroom died and they needed a new one. When it was replaced the electrician put in a white one which the husband turned around and said he couldn’t live with that being white and it had to be changed right away. I don’t think I am doing any justice to how he sounded. He made it seem as if he were going to stop living if the plug was not replaced as soon as possible due to it being white, mind you the bathroom is black and white. There are some other things they did also that were fucked up. Like lie about going to the basement to take care of some things they put down there only to look at the power grid box circuit breaker and then comment to my mother on how old it was. The list goes on, you get the picture.

I hadn’t heard from Jess, and I was in a funk today. Really looking forward to hanging out with Alex from school and telling her about the research project, bringing her up to speed on things as we hang out in the cemetery. I really have established a fine sense of knowing when someone is going to flake out on me which she did. She is interning at the district attorney’s office, why I don’t know since she is a forensic psych major and doing work there doesn’t make sense since that is more of a criminal justice, law, criminology, you get the idea, internship. So I asked about Friday since tomorrow is going to rain anyway and she said no because she is going to be working. I mentioned Tuesday but I have a feeling she just isn’t going to go as much as she said she wanted to.

I spoke to Jessica before that though and she was all excited and told me she had good news. That being that she took the apartment and is moving. I did not have anything good to say though I didn’t get into things because if you talk about anything with Jessica that isn’t’ what she wants to hear she has to go and dismisses you. Sounds like Isadora… Anyway I told her that she won’t be 5 blocks away from me and in walking distance, her answer was I can take the train and I can sleep over since she will have another room. That is not what I wanted to hear. I also pointed out we can’t go for walks. She didn’t say anything she was just quiet. She gave me her reason as to what she claims to be the straw that broke the camels back, I honestly just think she was being impulsive and using this as an excuse. I really would love to sit her down and talk to her and tell her how as much as she tries to grow up, she isn’t doing it the right way. At this point I see so many similarities with Isadora it isn’t funny.