"Heaven's on Fire" by The Radio Dept.

Wednesday: For some reason I feel as if my summer is beyond repair right now. I think its due to how things started off. I think I just view things are being beyond repairing right now. This summer is different too since I graduated. I know I’m not going back to school in the fall so it doesn’t feel the same where I need to worry cause it’s the middle of July and my vacation is running out. I also don’t have Mike asking me what I want to do since he is at an internship. His time is being taken up so I am home being miserable heh. Well the good thing is that I have 2 concerts coming up, one Wednesday (Wild Beasts) and one Friday (A Perfect Circle). I also have been looking forward to seeing the next Harry Potter movie with Mike and Jessica which will be this Saturday for us. So I will be busy for a change.

Some things have been definitely discoursing for sure though. For example the whole focus group I am supposed to have this week. I have yet to email the professor, mainly because I guess I just don’t see a point. It would be a good idea to though, to tell him that out of the people I emailed only 2 answered me and both of them are not able to make it to the group due ot the time. Plus people don’t want to travel to school when they are off for the summer. I know I don’t like going there when it’s the summer, unless I’m working. It probably would have been a better idea to do this over the fall semester. I think Brett is in a rush to get things done though hence why he is doing it now and not waiting. Haste makes waste though.

I went to my endocrinologist this weekend and she said my blood work was great. The only thing that is a problem is this thalassemia trait that seems to always come up. It won’t hurt me but if I were to have children with someone that had that trait, the children would then have issues with being anemic. The only thing though that is affecting me is that I am low on vitamin D. Because I have that UV sensitivity I and wear a lotion with an spf it blocks my body from absorbing vitamin D. I take a multi vitamin but apparently it isn’t enough. I told her how I have a pain in my back and have had one and asked why she asks me about that and she said that diabetics get back issues and though I am young she still asks. She said that my need of vitamin D could be the reason why I am having back pain so she prescribed me some industrial intense prescription only form of D. its about 50,000 units of D that I only take once a week. After taking that first pill the pain in my back subsided though now it is back I won’t lie and say it magically went away. I wish it would. The only other thing we discussed, other than the pump which I still refuse to get, was getting the subcutaneous glucose monitor. The way that works is, it would be on me for 3 days at a time constantly testing my blood sugar. I wouldn’t need to carry my blood machine anymore since the other thing would be on me all the time. I have less resistance to the idea of getting that than the pump. With the pump I just fear it malfunctioning and causing my death or something serious. With the glucometer the only thing it could do is just give me misreadings which is easy for me to figure out if something is wrong.