Sunday: The semester is winding
down, finally. Honestly it wasn’t terrible and I feel like I got a lot done.
The only downside is that I had to deal with so much unnecessary bullshit at
the office due to immaturity.
Two days out of the week are really
unbareable at times. But that is only because I have to deal with Rico and
Shelain. Rico is like dealing with a 5 year old that thinks he is always right,
and Shelain is like dealing with a woman that suffers from pms all the time and
suffers from bipolar disorder. I feel that when I am around her or know that I
am going to encounter her, I need to have my defenses raised. If I don’t, we
get into some silly altercation and I back down and just let her do whatever
when I shouldn’t. I should stand my ground and not let her be a huge cunt. It’s
hard to believe at times that she was someone that I had as an emergency
contact due to how close we were, now it just seems like I am thinking about
someone else.
Felicia, my new therapist, said that I
should just relax when I deal with crap in the office. To remind myself that
Shelain is not coming back next semester. “Serenity now, serenity now” she says
to me but it is easier said than done in the heat of a moment. She helps with
getting my mind on track with things but sadly she cannot be there when things
are stressful. I can’t magically conjure her up and ask for guidance. Or
support to say fuck you and stop being such a cunt. I have spoken to the head
of the dept, and as I mentioned about her not coming back he said that that is
due to her attitude and her being out of control. I just fear that the next
semester she will be back though, and as I expressed to the film professor and
he agreed. I am really tired about discussing it with friends and in therapy. The
best example of the crap I have to deal with is the one that deals with the
paper in the office…
The paper is for the printers and our
Xerox machine. The paper is locked inside a small metal cabinet on wheels,
which Shelain also stores the papers of her students in. She really shouldn’t
but that is what she does and has been doing all semester. I left early on a
Tuesday and when I came in Wednesday to reload the printer I noticed that there
were 8 reams of paper missing. I flipped out and even Mobruka said that
something was wrong. I asked Janette, my work study and she said that she
didn’t know what happened. So I said something to the head of the dept and he
said that he could investigate. The next day I went in and found two boxers of
paper totally 20 reams and then a pile of 8 behind the door. When I asked Rico
about it he said it came from the head and that I told the head he stole it. I
didn’t and I told him that he should have left me a note. He pointed out how he
has lent paper out before and I said yes but this was 8 reams not 1 or 2. But
he felt he was in the right and I the wrong, and I felt he was in the wrong and
I in the right. We ended the conversation since it wasn’t going anywhere. I
confiscated the keys to the cabinet which only caused more shit since Shelain
wanted them and insisted I give her mine after I said thtey were on my ring.
She wanted to know why and I told her why I had them. She became ridiculous and
said I was holding the office hostage with having the keys. Just spouting nonsense
so that I would back down with her yelling at me. I put the keys back in the
draw and told her but it didn’t make her happy she just went off some more to
make things worse. The only way I found I could resolve this was to just clear
out one of the big filing cabinets when they weren’t around and put all the
supplies and paper in there. This time I am not going to be so giving with the
key. I only have to deal with them for
one day this week hopefully they don't spend more unnecessary time there.
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