"Ghosts" by Deftones

So things have been interesting lately. Maybe it’s due to the fact that my stress level is going to go up since I have an actual GRE date scheduled.

Work definitely doesn’t help me at all when it comes to not being stressed. It drives me up a wall that Milly is sometimes in my office, well I should say that if she is working that day, I’ll find her in there. At times it's a good thing, but 90% of the time its something that pisses me off since it becomes a battle for my desktop. I put this phantom key in the back of the computer to make it act like it has a virus, it has deterred her. It keeps her away from the computer but I need to remember to take it out when I am working since it will then make my job even more difficult. On top of that, the school really is a mess when the semester starts. Things don’t work properly, especially the equipment in the lab. The itss techs are also lazy. I would put in a work order for the computer mice to be fixed due to them being overly sensitive. You graze the side of the mouse and it jumps back to a previous page. A tech came and said they worked and left them alone. I don’t understand why they didn’t test them further, oh it’s due to laziness. I am use to the days where everything doesn’t work, like today for example, and try to deal with it.

One major thing helping me with studying is the help Maia is giving. Well we help each other and study together. Have been now for a few weeks, setting aside three hours. The only problem I have is that then I get lazy and don’t want to study on the days I am not with her. this isn’t really a good thing though since she is taking the test before me. So I will have a few weeks where I have to do things on my own. I am not really sure she will want to come after and go over things, then again you never know.

All this time has passed with me studying for this test. Okay its more like going into 4 months now and the routine of not really seeing Mike is what I am use to now. Not really having time to see him due to our schedules not working out. He has another job and when I am free he is there working. I was able to take him out for his birthday to see Dead Can Dance, which was an amazing concert. I have to say that that was one of the best concerts I have gone to, and it’s not because they performed three encores. I saw him again then after his birthday, though I have to say that when I went back to his house we ended up having a talk about things. Mainly because he said there are things in the bedroom he wants to do and I don’t. We spoke about it and started to try some new things which were great until his father came home and that ended that. I think him and I are both stressed. Or I’ll say I hope it is that. He tends to piss me off lately. I know he is trying to finish this movie that he is editing and I am sure that is stressing him. I really don’t know how he is going to go to school, work at the place he edits film, finish the film at the place he interns at, and work this weekend job. He is wearing himself to thin.

And unfortunately have to go to this movie’s premiere and walk the red carpet. FUCK!