"Welcome to the Jungle" by Guns N' Roses

So as much as I don’t want to think about tomorrow, I am. Dreading to see what is going to happen with this new semester starting. I have been talking to my mother about how I don’t want to walk in to find Milly in my office because I will have to bite my tongue and not be nasty to her. To add to things, Mobruka didn’t help much. She was sending me texts asking when I am coming in tomorrow and then on how I should be there before her and not repeat what I did last semester. What the fuck? Seriously, I only have a certain amount of hours, and I am going in late and leaving late why should I be in early and work longer? Yes I am studying for the gre with Maia but still? I really feel like I have to hold back from telling her to shut the fuck up. I don’t want to go in tomorrow with a huge attitude since I have things to take care of. I laughed when she wrote how things need to change, I felt like saying its in the works since I am going to make sure my door’s lock is changed. But first tomorrow I need to get that desk removed, and then I can focus on other things. I’m going to ignore what she says about not removing it and just get it the fuck out. It needs to go. All it does it just take up room and have mouse shit collect on it.

This is all stuff to talk to Joanne about. I know that I am stressed with having to take this test, so I have put some things on the back burner so that I am not overly anxious and upset. Unfortunately my temper then gets the best of me and I’m angry easily. Especially in situations like this where I would be irked normally now makes me want to just yell at the person and say do me a favor and don’t talk to me. Make believe I don’t exist, I’m not here. I’m the wind. And I can’t say tomorrow, hey I am not in the mood to talk because then automatically then the other person is going to wonder why. What is the problem? So tomorrow I need to go in with all smiles on my face, everything is right with the world, though it isn’t. I think I will have to just stress to Dr. Lanzone that I need the lock changed as soon as possible, and I realize the semester is just starting so things will be crazy.