"Whose Authority" by Nada Surf

Yesterday was a mess trying to travel through Brooklyn to just buy some fruit. The traffic was unbearable but it was all due to people scrambling for gas. The line was so long you would have thought that they were giving it away for free. It was nice to see some families celebrating Halloween, not letting all of this crap that has gone on hold them back. My mother entertained the thought of bringing food home from one of the restaurants but they were all crowded. Starbucks was insane as well, and I decided it would be best to just go.

While I was home I made sure to email the head of the department. He was understanding and isn’t even sure as to what is going on with him. He put me at ease, despite the email that went out from the school stating that people that work for the college should come back Thursday, today. Honestly, even though some train service is back I don’t know how I would do that unless I could fly. There aren’t trains connecting me to the city, only half way. Jessica said I would have to take a shuttle and honestly I don’t want to cause I know they will be packed. Is it really worth it to travel into the city when you will commute for a longer time than you are actually working? 

This morning Joanne called me and let me know she is at the clinic so I will see her tomorrow. We can talk about all of this crazy nonsense then. One thing that really irritated me is that Mobruka sent me a text in regards to how I should be at work today. There isn’t any way, and honestly I don’t want to entertain the thought of traveling in since its not an easy process. You can argue that I don’t take my job seriously. Honestly, the job isn’t that serious to think about traveling in. Lives aren’t at stake, the world will not fall apart, yes I am not bothering in the least. Considering how I blew up on Mobruka last time, I wasn’t really prepared to deal with her inconsiderate comment. All I said to her was “I have no way to get in, I told Seth. And I wont until trains go from Brooklyn to the city.” I wanted to say other things but I didn’t bother. I will vent about this in my session tomorrow which Joanne will ask me  why it bothers me. It bothers me that she is inconsiderate and her statement was insensitive. Thoughtless, thoughtless fucking comments that's what it was. Ugh, so happy I can talk about this tomorrow.