"Empty (live)" by Ray LaMontagne

Wednesday: I have still been thinking about this whole situation dealing with Anna and the class. I spoke to some friends about it and still really just don’t know what to do. I am hoping to discuss it with Dr. Lanzone tomorrow and tell her what is going on. I am dealing with some ethical issues because I don’t find what Anna did to be fair. She made me miss an entire class over 1 minute. It literally had just struck 3:36pm and she had the door closed. I keep thinking I was more than 1 min late but I wasn’t wrong for thinking what time I got there. I am so tempted to blame my lateness on having a hypoglycemic episode and that is why I was late. But I don’t want to lie. I really feel that the longer I stay at this school that the only way to get anything done or taken care of is if I lie. There have been to many events where I felt that I only hurt myself more by telling the truth. Then again with my luck, I lie this one time and it bites me in the ass. Dr. Lanzone said that she would email Anna and tell her that I got there late to class because I was talking to her. I just feel like I am putting her in an awkward situation where she shouldn’t be. Hopefully when I talk to her tomorrow we can come up with some sort of conclusion to this that makes the best sense. I think that when I hand Anna the letter from disabled students it might que up questions from her as to if my lateness was due to medical reasons.

i want to take this time to vent about something but I don’t even know how to exactly get into this. Its such a really odd story, but I am furious over it. I haven’t been this angry in a while, wait didn’t I say that not long ago about something else? Or in regards to someone else?

For the past month, maybe longer, this random person has been calling my house and has the wrong number. Always confused as to how he dialed the number, or just hearing them talk in the background. I think I answered once or twice and didn’t get an answer so I just hung up. The thing that sucks more than the random calls is the times that they come in. They aren’t always at the same times, sometimes it’s a normal time like 5pm or 8pm. But then there are when they are at 6am, or 4am. I remember once a call came through at like 8am and I was furious. Actually now that I am thinking about this, it has been going on for a really long time. I remember working over the summer and getting a call at 8am and being pissed since I was sleeping. So tonight I was in the middle of a raid and the phone rang and my mother said how its that wireless caller and my parents were busy talking about it. I passively listened and over heard my mother say that she was calling the vmail and how it was the vmail of Chris F…. I don’t know what the expression on my face looked like, but I just know that it must have been an “oh shit” look on my face or something of shock. Because the person that has been calling my house for around 3 months now is Jessica’s ex boyfriend Chris the bird piece of shit. I texted Jessica and asked her if he had my number and how when my mother called it had his name on the vmail. She said no, then asked the name on the vmail and probably then read what I said again and after I sent her the phone number she flipped out and said how he has her old cell number. So why didn’t she erase my number? And that he accidently dials me when he sits on the phone since that is what she use to do to me all the time. Meanwhile in the living room my mother is busy leaving nasty voicemails screaming, by the by at this point I didn’t say anything to her that this was Jessica’s ex. So I then told my mother and told Jessica she needs to call my house and settle this because my parents are pissed. So she called and my mother told her how annoying it is and he needs to stop calling. So to make things I guess worse, or to piss me off more. Jessica says I should block his number. Why should I do that? He should delete my number. I am really just furious with her because I don’t understand why she didn’t delete my information from that phone. I find it a little too coincidental that he is calling me, someone he dislikes due to the fact that I’m gay. I honestly don’t feel like talking to her for a while. I want to point out to her that he has been calling for over or around 3 months now and its really fucking annoying and that she needs to do something. I just don’t know what the hell to say or think right now.