"Rivière" by Deftones

Wednesday: Today didn’t go the way I really expected it to, and it started last night with me passing out and not taking a shower. I got up this morning and was running late, I also didn’t care that I was. I feel horrible cause I keep making plans with Karen to hang out and talk about the shit at school. She wrote me on fb and pretty much said that we suck at meeting and gave me her number, funny thing is I have had it… seems to happen a lot where I have people’s numbers but don’t actually use them. My meeting with the head of psych got canceled due to him being sick. It was really windy today, I think he is made of sand and was afraid of getting blown away. I tried to make an appointment with him, but he said he isn’t free… which is fucking fabulous cause I am dragging this shit out he is only free next week Monday or Tuesday the earliest. Ugh so I tried to get in contact with the head of anthro so I could ask him what he thought but he was out to a meeting.

I got myself into a real jam though with this tattoo artist. I went with Milly to see Chris and got lost in the process. The area did not look familiar like last time, but it was just due to the area. Apparently if you come from one direction its walking through Chinatown and the other direction is the ghetto. When I got to the shop, I had to wait for Chris to take a break from his current client and see me. He did not remember my name even though I just wrote him a day ago. He kept insisting my name was Jason, I had to clear it up that it isn’t. I also had to do that a few times because he has the memory of someone suffering from Alzheimer’s or Amnesia. I gave him the design I was interested in and told him what I wanted, also showed him the location. I left him a deposit of $80 and wanted to set things up for a specific date, but he couldn’t. So I just made it for a Wednesday as much as I didn’t want to. The thing that caused me to be so uneasy right now, is the question I should have asked as soon as I walked in the door. “What is your hourly rate?”, but I asked him last as I was leaving. He told me that for 3 hours it comes to $500, about $160 an hour. So not what I paid last time and I told him that. he said it was due to being at another shop, meaning Hand of Glory. But that’s not true, since I came to him in the city and it wasn’t that much when he had to finish what he started on my arm. So I said alright and left only to think about it, and regret leaving a deposit. When I spoke about it to Milly it had me thinking… so when I was taking the train home instead of getting off my stop to go home I just stayed and went to HOG instead. I called Mike and he said it was to much money and that I should see if Chris would be up for negotiating lowering the price. Especially since I would have to go for 2 sessions and I don’t feel like spending $1,000 on something the size of my fist when I have spent that much for a half sleeve. So I went to HOG and asked them if they could tell me which artist did the design, which I had saved on my phone. They told me his name, his rate is $125 and he will be in tomorrow. So I’m going to call him tomorrow before I hang out with Bessy before her date. I feel horrible though canceling this with Chris since I wanted to get it done by him, but it’s probably better for me to get it done by the person that originally designed the design instead of someone else. I just feel like, asking for my money back is going to cause shit. I am going to just have to explain that I wasn’t expecting to pay that much and that if I get this done I will not have the money to finish this tattoo any time soon, nor start on the one on my side. Hopefully he understands…