Sunday: Well I am not ashamed to admit that I am depressed. It started with all the shit with school, the fact its being dragged out this long is not helping. Its not helping me one bit. Jessica said that that day I bumped into Randi I should really take her up on her finding me a therapist, which I certainly can do. There are some things I really don’t feel like getting into with someone new, starting from such a huge high and then going into other things. I wouldn’t say it’s a high, but something monumental? Something I’d say probably might not be received well from the beginning I guess is what you can say, not to start with. I am hoping that tomorrow, Monday, resolves all of my woes. Mainly the shit with school, but I have a feeling it won’t be. I don’t think the head of psych will really know what to tell me. Maybe sit there with his thumb up his ass and stare at me drooling on himself. I think that is more of what will happen. Then again who knows, he could know something I don’t and I am blown the fuck away. But I think the first of what I said is more likely to be what will transpire in that small room.
I am reminded of the quote inside of the short story “Guts” in the story “Haunted” by Chuck Palaniuk when the leak started near my desktop. “I need a hole in my head like I need teeth in my asshole.” That sums it up right there, something else I definitely do not need on top of the other shit. Though one of the few things I’m dealing with is my fault, and I am aware, I just need to resolve it fast. As for the leak its in such an awkward place that I am just afraid of the plumber moving the desk with the computer on it. It’s old and needs to be replaced like now. Which my family knows and we are looking into moving the computer to another location in the house. that is definitely going to take some getting use to.
I think everyone is dealing with something stressful honestly, Bessy is dealing with this guy she literally just started to date who decided to take another girl the next day to the bar Bessy works at. And pretty much just be stupid with her and make out with her, though we don’t know how true that is. Jessica is dealing with something really horrid. Her family has been taking care of this little annoying dog for about 7 years, which is their neighbors. The family is quite attached to it and its not doing so well. So instead of having it put down due to whatever is wrong with it, they are dragging this poor thing around to different vets. The owner keeps dropping it off at her family’s house. Jessica is really upset with this and I don’t blame her honestly, I think that the dog needs to be put down and they are just making it suffer. Every day is bringing something new. Not to mention the crap she is dealing with with this new guy she is dating. Whether its something she needs to discuss with him further on their communicating or this is just him she needs to figure out what to do. I think she wants to move on from dating the bird and thinking of him so whatever does that for her she’ll do. I really think she needs a break from everything but she won’t listen to me and will do what she wants. So just have to leave her be.
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