"Lucky You" by Deftones

So I made up my decision as to if I am going to my cousin's wedding and I can't make it. I can't go for a number of reasons and the biggest one is I cannot afford it. It's going to run me over a thousand to travel and get every thing I need to go. I don't feel comfortable asking Jessica to completely split things with me even if she were to go with me. Unlike with the California research conference trip where we are all splitting things so that we can all go. My cousin sans writing me this week and I asked to exchange numbers with her. As I discussed with Jessica, I wanted to talk to my cousin about the wedding but I didn't want to minimize the event. A wedding is a big deal, it's just not something I can afford now. Comparing the two events to each other, both important, one falls way outside of my financial situation. Even if my cousin knows where I am coming from I don't want her to think I am choosing to not go to her brother's wedding for other reasons. One reason being, that my aunt will be there, but that also is a contributing factor as to why I'm not going. I discussed this all with Jessica, and she said that as we get older there will be weddings we go to where we don't know people at our table. She compared it to a wedding she went to with her boyfriend and it was not the same. She was his date of course she didn't know anyone there, but this is a family event and I should know more people there than uh three? And those people really aren't going to spend the whole night with me. On a side note even though I am not going to this wedding I need to continue to save money which is not working out in y favor. Save money and lose weight... Okay well save money, lose weight, and study for the GRE. Let's see if I can do all that.

And speaking of the GRE I am still studying obviously. Maia from the research project is also. I think it is interesting that we never really spoke, I have known her for possibly over a year but never made a connection with her to talk to her. The only one I really talk to like that is Selma. Then again I had class with Selma and also have been working on this project with her for close to two years now. So Maia has been meeting me at work and we study spending three hours on math and she thanked me letting me know it's helping and I agree. I just have to see how this will work out with classes starting up soon. I am aiming to take this test before September 25th which is when the next Warcraft expansion comes out. This way I can invest my time in the game and not worry about the test. 

And finally the office... With the return of Dr. Lanzone things are going to change. Not that they hadn't with Davies doing things, but with her doing stuff it will happen. My fear is the head slacking off with taking care of the lab due to the fact that the lab isn't really under the departments control. When I was talking to Dr. Lanzone about the key situation, she wasn't aware that Mayra was giving keys away to people as if they were candy. Too many people have keys to my office and the main doors which changed when the locks were changed. But still my office is open to those with the key. This bothers me. This bothers me and the fact that Milly goes in there before I am at work and is on the computer. It isn't her office she shouldn't be in there when I am not there. The biggest problem with this is that when Milly and I both started working for the department we came in at the same level. We were both tutors and as time passed, that changed. I was more for software and hardware of he computers and she remained a reading tutor. So now that I am in a position of authority she doesn't see it. Whatever I may say, whether it is something I'm changing or something coming from a professor in charge, she will not pay any mind to it. Same problem I had with Tiffany working for me until I spoke to her and said I would not have the head of the dept sign her time sheets if she kept acting like a shit. So I have to rearrange my office and Dr. Lanzone will work on having the locks changed so that no one is I my office without me being there, which is what she wants, I want, and the way the office is supposed to be run. If I let someone in it's because I am there. I wanted to talk to Mobruka about this but I feel I can't. It's probably best if she doesn't know what is going on and just walks into it all.