"Your Legs Grow" by Nada Surf

I have to say that my stress level has possibly gone down,
or maybe it’s down at this moment. But it also can be the result of the drama
with the GRE. No, no, I did not take it yet. And what happened is honestly
ridiculous. A week ago, I received an email from ETS the testing company. They
sent it to my personal email and said something about how I should rate my
experience with taking the new GRE. I didn’t take it and why did I get this
email here? So I called them to ask what this was in regards to. I told them
that I put in a request through disabled students and was waiting to hear a
reply. Turns out the spelt my last name wrong after I clearly gave them my
email. The “okay” saying that I am allowed special benefits went out two weeks
after I had it faxed in. So, yeah I could have taken the test more than likely
when I wanted to. But how would this affect me getting into gradschool? Well
yeah it isn’t good. The head of the masters psych programs decided that they
had enough applicants and close the program a month before they normally do, so
I can’t apply for the fall just the spring. So that screws up my plan so far
with going to the conference in California. If I go, instead of having grants
to pay for my trip I have to pay out of pocket which leads to other issues…

My cousin is getting married the end of October and I wanted
to go. I wanted to go since we got the save the date card. When I mentioned it
to Jessica before I could even finish asking if she would go with me she said
“I have the perfect dress!” so yeah she’d be my +1. Literally right after the
wedding is this conference in California. It's the beginning of November. So I don’t
know how this is going to work unless I do not buy anything for a while, which
lately as I mentioned isn’t easy. Oh did I mention I am also having a tattoo
drawn up for my back? So how the fuck am I going to do all of this?! Jessica
said that I can put the tattoo off it is not a rush and I totally agree. It wasn’t
even something I should sit and rethink. It is something that will have to
wait. The money I save, I am also afraid won’t be enough to cover both. I
really don’t know what to do in this situation, but as I pointed out to Jessica
I know one situation, event, that will make things worse.

I will discuss this all with Joanne tomorrow when I see her
let alone the other issues that are on my mind.