"Combat" by Deftones

Thursday: My mother had been dreading this day for a while, but it was finally time for her to get the biopsy on her breast to find out what exactly this thing is that came up on the sonogram. We left early and sat in the office, for them to call her name. People strolled in and out, but no one was there for a long time… except us. I was sitting there with my coat on being thankful I didn’t wear just a hoody, yet I was still cold. My mother got up to go into the room and she put her coat on top of me to keep me warm. I was falling in and out of sleep waiting for her to come out and finally it was done. All is well and there is nothing to worry about, though she had a funny story. She told me how the doctor could not find this infamous “nodule” that we have been hearing about for the past 2 months or so. Apparently they can just float on away and disappear. The pathologist wanted her films to see where this nodule was since he couldn’t find it. He said how this other woman was there earlier and waited an hour to see him only to leave without him finding anything. He couldn’t believe he had 2 patients in one day with the same problem, and he asked my mother if he could do a biopsy on her thyroid after finding 2 nodules there. Both were fine but she was in a lot of pain. She was talking about how it was painful to swallow and it reminded me of the throat infection I’m dealing with. We went home and I went to lay down for a few and warm up since I felt like I was sitting in a meat locker.

While I was out with her walking home I stressed how I didn’t know still where to have my dinner. How I was waiting for Jessica to get back to me, since I emailed her earlier, about eating at Fonda tomorrow night. My mother asked me why I didn’t ask her to go and pick up food and we could try it together, so that is what we did. I don’t know why I didn’t think of asking her if she wanted to go, and felt silly for not thinking of it sooner. We placed the order and went there and I was very happy with what I tried. I had the Pollo del Norte which was delicious and the grilled Chorizo with cheese was something I would definitely eat again. The only thing that I didn’t like is that I became full easily. I still am not sure if that I due to the symlin I am taking or something else going on. I will call tomorrow or Saturday and make the reservations for 10. As of right now I have 9 people going. I also invited Mike’s friends so I will see how this works. With my luck watch I’ll go and 18 people are standing there chillin waiting for me to seat them all. I think that’s when I smack the other 10 and ask them why they didn’t rsvp sooner so I could take it into consideration.

I spoke to Aisha about the whole thing with Isadora and how I felt that she was going to not show. When I explained how she seemed to be pointing out how its not a good idea to go to the Ian event and then have another one hours away, Aisha said if it is something I can handle I would know. So I will have to see how this all pans out.

Earlier today Vanessa decided she wanted to text me and inform me that Vampire Weekend was going to be in the city at Union Square in a Barns and Nobles performing or something. She didn’t flat out tell me though, it was more along the lines of telling me through 1 word text messages that really drove me insane! As I explained to Aisha, I am not on the best terms with Vanessa well I shouldn’t really say that. I tried to get in contact with her months ago and was ignored. I called her, wrote her emails and on facebook, text her, and never received anything back. I commented that she was ignoring me and she just twisted it around to make it seem like it was my fault. So I really am not happy with the situation and honestly don’t know what to make of it. I can’t bring it up at my birthday because that would be extremely awkward. I will have to find the right time and ask her what exactly is going on and why she was so evasive. If she blames it on me I think beams of firely light will shoot out of my eyes and vaporize her.