"976-Evil" by Deftones

I had spent time thinking about how I didn't make any plans for my birthday. I think now i see why I make them so much in advance. When it gets closer I lose interest. I see that this year I regret not planning something though i always could for the future.

Friday I got a call from Anthony. I haven't spoken to him in 2 years due to his mother and her being up my ass. I backed off, and took a huge step back. It wasn't until I saw him at the clinic I go to for therapy where he is trying to start talking to me again. I don't have anything against him, I just realize he is not the same person I knew years ago. It also isn't his fault. When he called I wasn't sure who it was and was surprised to hear it was him. Apparently, he thought I was posting on twitter that I saw him in the clinic and it was on his mind. I didn't do that and wouldn't. I did tell Jessica though, that was what I was doing on my phone. I assured him I did not post on twitter. He continued to talk to me about nonsense which I honestly wasn't in the mood to talk about. I was on my way out from getting my hair cut and I just wanted to get home and eat. I also didn't want to hear his mother contributing to the conversation in the background, but she did not. I don't even know if she was there. From the bits of information he told me, he has a roommate. I am not sure if he is still living at home but taking up the apartment or if he is on his own. Thinking of him on his own is a scary thought. It would make me wonder about him taking his meds… We ended our conversation and it left me feeling that it wouldn't be the last I heard from him. I try to avoid seeing him at the clinic, but that is just more luck than pure avoidance. I don't know his schedule nor would be provided with it to avoid him. I just hope that the times I go, he is either not there that day or that time.

Saturday I went to have my "Lion's Share" tattoo finished. I honestly did not expect to be laying there for 2.5 hours but I did get to watch a few episodes of Six Feet Under. I always say that whenever I get something done, whether it is a tattoo, piercing, or have surgery, I would write about it. This way I can go back and use it as a reference and say oh wow yeah when I had the inside of my arm tattooed last time it didn't hurt and this time it was worse than death. Well, I felt that my leg was a little sensitive in some areas. I believe that in the past i have waited about a month before having any other work done to complete a tattoo. I also tried to be more talkative with Brian than last and the previous times. I felt like he was saying like Ruth, the mother in Six Feet Under, where she was thinking in her head how her co worker should shut up when talking at dinner. He did say last time to me that the next time I came maybe he would be up for a conversation since he wasn't this time due to him being in pain from his impacted wisdom tooth. I think that talking to him is actually what slowed down what he was doing, then again he added A LOT of color. More than I expected, and to areas I wasn't really wanting color. I didn't notice all the fine detail he put in until the next day when I was washing it. He did an excellent job, though I feel something about it is off. I said to my mother earlier that I felt that he did all of that to make up for something. She just looked at me blankly.  After Brian finished, I went with Jessica and Mike to Moim for dinner. Mike didn't feel like he may be up for it and felt he was coming down with a cold, but he felt better after he ate. I could have beaten him though for using his chop sticks in the salad I ordered. If looks could have killed he would have burst into flames. I just looked at him when I realized what he was doing and stopped eating it. Jessica later said that that is what happens in a relationship you get sick from each other. Sometimes I wonder if she takes a pill that makes stupid shit pour out of her mouth or if she chooses to say these things. After we ate, and had coffee we left.  The odd thing was, I was not anywhere near being tired after the tattoo and being out. I was up pretty late surprisingly. That was a first for sure.

Today was an interesting day back. I was so blah over things with it being my birthday, but that changed seeing the posts people left on my wall on Facebook. I walked into the office and was greeted by Mobruka with a hug, and Milly trailed in after her. She put me in a headlock and wished me a happy birthday. I told her she shouldn't have gotten me from behind when she did it and she got embarrassed and walked out of the room. I was way to busy today and due to me running around and putting pressure on my right leg, it totally made my knee act up. Towards the end of the day the pain was getting pretty bad and I needed to rest. One thing I wont forget, other than how socially awkward the people in ITSS are, is the comment I made to Milly about the new cleaning woman. I pointed out that the one we had, Rhonda, is no longer on our floor and we now have Susie Wong. Milly said "well when you see Susie, please tell her…. wait her name isn't really Susie is it?" and I said no, she walked away saying "and this is why I can't stand you." But of course she was joking.

After dinner, my mother had the banana carmel creme pie I like from Sweet Melissa waiting for me. I wanted that over a birthday cake.

Happy Birthday to me.